I have always asked that question..why? yet I have not found out the answer, and I don't think I ever will...not until I leave this world and see God, by then I can ask him....
People by nature always want more, we are never contented with whatever we have. We still crave for more....and it's sad that once in a while, even if we have the things we desire, we still get lonely. Sometimes we get lonely for no reasons at all....
There are some moments in my life where I wished I never got old, it is sometimes better to stay young, a child...because a child can always appreciate the simple things in life...a child never complains about the hurtful things in life....a child can just sleep it off...a child can just pick-up his toy and smile...a child can always ease burdens by just a hug from his mother....but I am no longer a child, I grew up....
I grew up seeing things in a different way, I saw people got hurt horribly...I saw my mom crying...I saw my world collapse, I saw my dreams shattered...and I couldn't do a thing...but cry....
But then I learned to pray and have faith... faith that things would somehow be better tomorrow... I am uncertain, but there is always that little spark of hope out there....
Now, I want to stop wishing, because I am scared that I might get those wishes...and realize that those wishes are beyond my understanding...I just hope...hope that things will be lighter...that I'd always be able to make it and smile.....
