my ship moves forward...

I really think it's about time I move on...ALONE...

I finally took you off my FB, and I feel it's better that way so I won't see you online and won't be tempted again to send you a message. It usually starts with a simple hello and the next thing I see is that you and I are together again...this time I hope things will be different...

The last four months was filled with mostly joy and a very few yet enormous amount of pain and headache...I have to admit that I still have the courage and strength to give what we have another chance, there is still so much hope that we can fix all this mess...but the question is, do I see a bright future ahead of us? do I see that light at the end of the tunnel? my answer is no...all I see are trouble, heartaches and fights...so it's best to stop while I still can..while we still can...

As I always say at the end of anything I do...Thank you....thanks for the warm hugs and wonderful kisses...for a short while you took care of me and you made me feel special...you made the distance between us never an obstacle...so sad that things did not work out...

I have always been a believer of second chances, yet what we had are more than second chances...quota na tayo kaya tama na :) at sana wag ka na bumalik, because I'm sure if you ever come back I would be helpless and again I will just give you a hug and make things OK...

I'm moving on ALONE...but I wish you the best...at this moment you are still the most important human being in my heart other than my family, so I can't see you just yet...maybe someday soon when I'm able to move on, I could look at you and smile and remember that once you were apart of my dreams...few months ago I prayed that God will allow us to be together for the longest time...now I hope it won't happen anymore....there's just no chance for us...take care....

did i got lost????

I can't believe it's been over a year since I last wrote an entry in my blog...I don't know why I stopped I guess I got tired...wala namang nagco-comment LOLZ!

But anyways, I decided to write again and hopefully for good.

Basically, the main reason I think I stopped blogging is that I was hurt and then was able to move on. Reading on my last entry, it was really full of pain, but looking back now that I'm better...I can smile and realize how silly I was at that time, parang tanga lang hahahaha!

I was really hurt last year and felt like crying every night, good thing my faith never failed to comfort me and helped me moved on...and now I'm finally good friends with that someone na iniyakan ko ng todong-todo...which is obviously a good thing....

At heto na nga, I met someone again...arggghhhh!!! cycy di ka na nagtanda...

As usual..kilig nung bago pa, always happy always smiling kahit nag-iisa...then reality set in and the same story happened again...you know someone once told me that "the same thing will happen to us over and over again, until we have learned our lessons well", this makes me think na ganun ba ako katanga? ganun ba katigas ang ulo ko at paulit-ulit nalang to????

Same story, I met someone...I was extraordinarily happy, akala ko sha na, and I could not think the whole thing was happening...until we started fighting and things are changing slowly...obviously not for the better...

Hanggang kelan ba pwedeng magpakatanga? when do we say enough? and how do we let go of someone or of a relationship that's no longer making us happy? giving us stress instead of happiness....you know in your heart that things are no longer going to be OK but you still love the person and you don't want to loose this person yet...pano yun?

At pano ba magalit ng totoo sa taong mahal mo? that situation when you are so furious but when you see this special person, everything melts away...

I feel like I need to end this relationship now, pero paano? lalo na kung nakikita mo na at nakakalimutan mo na naman lahat ng plano mo....